Frustrated!

I'm so damn tired and frustrated right now. I already 3 weeks din go back to my house because I have to rush college's events in this week! (Eason Chan's Mini Concert and Talent Time Night) pray that my mom will be fine...and plenty assignments need to hang in by next week. I really really damn frustrated and me myself become very sensitive right now! I don't know why! Easily get offended by surrounding friends and anger always come in the first place! and I just can't stand people jokes right now. I tried to control myself but failed! So the nice and effective solution is just keep quiet and sit beside...

Taking this committee position (Publicity and Promotion) is such a challenging and interesting position but I enjoy it very much! sometimes it needs ton of energy to do the job and it needs people to help up. but it seems no one will come and be volunteer to help me...

For this Eason Chan's mini concert on this friday nite. and this week we have to touch our target and thanks God that we today was the second day of doing promotion and we sold 200 Eason Chan's CD. Such a victory that we see today. Kinda happy but my sensitivity pull me down. Sorry guys if you feel I am not the normal Sebastian I apologize right now!

Frankly, I am damn damn really frustracted right now ! GOSH!!!! I will find someone to share don worry. I will try to overcome my stress.

2nd thing, I face a problem right now.. Canteen 2 can't sponsor us meal for the actual night and GOSH!!!!!! I don1 say already la... later I will kill myself after this. ok la.. done!

Ps: pray for me!

Sebastian

Back...

Hi peeps! It has been so long I never update since after Camp! REally REallly sorry... haha... I was fine after camp. It was a great camp or retreat. It was really really FANTASTIC! And I spent time with God on the last night of the camp...I prayed and I asked for Help and now I guess I'm fine and feel better if compare to last month. by the way, let's talk something meaningful instead ^^! Forget the past!


College starts, Plenty of assignments need to be done by next week. and today is Saturday I went to Nikko Hotel, City Bank and etc to get their NewsLetters but ended up I got nothing T-T and the due date is Next Friday! WTF??? What AM I DOING RIGHT NOW!!!??? I gave up and it was already 4.10pm and I got to rush back to AGC for Spring Cleaning...! And I do nothing! I just went there and let people scold...WTF? anyway I offered helps ! =P haha....

After Spring Cleaning.. I joined my Secondary School gang for Dinner! then went for "Drag me to Hell" !!!! haha... The movies is so funny sth like Scary Movie... but it has a great sound effects...! I rated it in 7/10! not bad ! haha...

Haih...

Haih...

Plenty of hatreds I'm having now...

Plenty of burdens I'm carrying now...

Plenty of problems I'm solving now...

Plenty of wishes I'm waiting to happen now...

Plenty of prayers I'm asking God to help me now...

I'm so tired and not use to complain... I'm sure that I can solve it by myself!!!

Day by day, everything is getting tough and tougher...

Thing need time to develop and it will be done on 1 day!

but thing will change in 1 second if we did not use it nicely!

What can I say now... it's just a "haih..." from me...

I wish after this camp I can be better... and of coz, I will be asking God for helping me.

In my mind now, everything that I wish or dream is fake to me now, all that I can see in reality is only true to me and decide what to do... no more wishing!

People act close to you in the public but actually they are fake at the back!

People said they will help you but actually that's only saying and not helping...

I'm just a stupid boy always cheated by those drama kings and drama queens!

I thought that they can help me but ended up I'm alone!

Sometime, I think Why God Put Me In This Situation!!!!

I wished I can have a better family... but the family got so many problem! Lost a dad and so tired to see mom working hard.

I wished I can have a proper life... but the life was always the unstable-life!

I wished I can be a good friend with someone... but it seems so hard to be friend with them!

I thought my life will be better after being a Christian... but now my life faces so many challenges!

Past few weeks I had a simple wish and my wish was having a good and cooperate roommate! I can't judge the book by its cover! ya I got a roommate... he don't like to talk to people, he is damn lazy and he is damn uncooperative roommate!!!! I'm so damn angry to have this roommate!!!





All this.... I have to accept!!! although I feel that's unfair for me! but I got to solve it!!!!


That's my recently story! thanks for reading and hope to see your comment.
Good Bye...
Sebastian!

Last day

Today was my last day of working, time is so fast and 3 weeks seem like 3 minutes and I just can't put a single smile on my face right now. My heart full of memories and full of joy but my emotion full of sadness! I can't help myself with this... Just grow up and stand firm! Emotion will change but memories will keep and remain for eternity...

What can I say? College gonna start soon... I need to end work and continue study...! and I need to focus back my mission! I need to face back what should I face! I need to develop and learn something new! I miss everyone and I force to leave everyone behind! I love you guys but it's the time for me to end right here and pursue my path! Yes, I'm leaving you guys! but maybe next year will be colleague again...! and yes, we are still in the same place but we wont see each other so often like 8 to 5 anymore but will meet once or twice in a week!

It's so sad to say Good Bye to everyone... I prefer to say Thank You instead of Good Bye...For me "Good Bye" means no turning back! but "Thank You" means we will see each other again! Thank you for being somebody in my life. Thank you for teaching me so many things. Thank you for opening my eyes to see the world. Thank you for treating me like I'm grow up baby!...

I'm so glad that I can work with a group of strong colleagues! If I did anything wrong or made mistakes and please put it in mind that "Sebastian is still learning...." haha... and forgive me! haha... In this 3 weeks, I have received so many joy and peace from you guys! Laughters always brought me into another world! haha...

To Ms.KC, thanks for caring me and teaching me thru this 3 weeks...
To Ms.Cheng, thanks for helping and protecting me thru this 3 weeks... LOL!!!
To Ms.Wendy, thanks for hiring me and giving me such a good opportunity!...
To Sir Steven, thanks for making the encouragement into grandmother's story! haha!!!
To my beloved friends there (Ginger, Ooi, Guan Han aka Meow), thanks for accompany me for so long... LOL....

ok done...

Sebastian

Light of My Life

Wandering like a leaf upon the wind
I have been searching for someone
Holding out for a love to shake my soul
Heaven or nothing
Then you walked into my life
In a blaze of light
I've never wanted someone more
You are the one I've waited for... Jesus!
 Light of my life
You are the fire in my heart
When I am lost
I know I'll feel you burning in the dark
You're the light of my life
Every star in the sky
Shines more brightly when you're at my side
Bringing me home time and again
Burning like an eternal flame

You are the light of my life!!

Ps: Sebastian is going to be someone... and he changes his lifestyle, hairstyle, and everything!!!! SOON!!!! 

 Ps: I still like my Job, thank you KC (my colleague) who always cut mango and put inside the fridge and wait for me to eat! Thank you... I so blessed ^^ ... I still appreciate my life, I know what am I doing in my life!... I appreciate my friendship and I love my beloved friends! we used to go out and eat and have fun always in this few weeks... Lee Hom's Concert, Ordered Domino Pizza, Go gym, and etc....!!!LOL, I feel like I'm going to WAR and I'm writing letter to tell my mom that her son still in the safety mode !!!! haha... ok la... gtg now!!!

Can you feel my world?

日日夜夜我闭着双眼祈祷
我知道我的世界已经变得越来越小
跑不掉逃不了
怎么面带着微笑?
怎么面对着你才好?
怎么眼泪都在掉?
怎么嘴嘟著好严肃这不是哭著就好?
什么旋律在我的脑袋一直转一直绕
意志力一直撑著我再一次祷告
帮助我...

Working...

Hi guys... I'm so happy that I work as a part-timer at hostel. and I'm so glad that I had learn something new during semester break. It seems to me that, I have another income and I don't have to bother to ask money from my mother and better to come out and work for part time and get some experiences and meet different kind of creatures out there. My colleagues all are so friendly and funny and they are willing to give a help if I need them. you guys are so blessing^^

After some days, I have met different kind of checking-in -customers and checking-out-folks! some parents are so kind and friendly and some are so proud of coming in and going out and some are so troublesome to ask this and ask that. and some are so weird keep asking weird questions.."got shampoo in hostel???" hello.. this is hostel and not hotel!!!! and apa macam pun ada... bah!!!!!!!! About checking-out-folks, some will obey what you ask him/her to do (i like this folk), some like 'big brother' tai lo! some are like "huh? huh? oh ... oh... ok!" blur-huh?-kid! some are so "teruk" in his/her attitude (go out and smash the door and hit the table wtf? and what's wrong with the kid nowadays huh???) this called wrong-channel-person! plenty of creatures here!!!! damn fun to see !

About the room, we went to check out floor by floor, block by block and room by room!! and go and do checking with them and their room, some are so clean (all are from girl's room) boy's room looks terrible... but my room look better than them! haha... This evening, I went to a boy's room and do checking, he study Hotel Management but he donno how to manage his room and what a sad management! haha, his room looks like rubbish-factory! and he said he went for internship so probably his roommate made those rubbish haha...and I helped him to clear all the rubbish out and the room looks clean and outside the room looks like "lorong-sampah"! LOL!

ok la.. don1 talk about this already! let's talk about my " word of encouragement" haha... so proud la saya...*perasan-ing* I know that some of you received my sms... I don't know why my mind keep thinking of sending encouraging message to everyone... so I spend 30 minutes to think what should I write... and since I wanna change my lifestyle and I decided to write "get enough rest"...haha If everyone wanna know what's the message and here you go--------------...

"Word of encouragement. "Get Enough Rest."

Our culture seems to value activities and money much more than rest, we work for money, we study for knowledge, we play for victory and etc...it's no wonder many of us feel so muddled, overwhelmed & tired (especially relationship from people and to people). Let's make a difference! and let's begin to view rest as a gift from God and yes, God took rest on the 7th day after working for six days.By the way, It may rejuvenate our soul and our soul will look wonderful ..." -Sebastian Ooi Tong

Some replied me and I have zero credit to reply back because I sent to almost hundred of my beloved friends... and some received it and some don't. SORRY!!!! because Out Of Credit already... haha! anyway it's my 1st time of doing this... I hope I can bless everyone! you all are so lovely!!! wuwuhuhu...

haha... ok la.. I gtg now... See ya!

Ps: Please leave a comment or feedback! even "hi" also enough! haha....

Sebastian...