Project # 176

20 May 2017

This is the movie I've watched just now. It's a good production and it is meaningful film to people who is really going to turn to 30s and yet do not know what are they looking for in life! Work, Relationship,  Family or Life? You can choose to be the top in your workplace or leader but all your time gonna commit to the company, are you happy enough? You can choose to love someone you wish to commit your entire life and you gonna give up on your work war like being somebody in your workplace but love may disappoint you... are you feeling okay? or for Life, you only wanna be someone down to earth, live happily and hate challenge yourself, only live for the moment! 

After this movie, I have clearly setting my mind what am I still looking for. My job? How far or how high do I wanna go up to the level in the organisation, become director? C-level? Am I willing to handle the responsibility or stressfulness ? OR LIFE? Am I still fighting for a rich and wealthy lifestyle or remaining the happy and healthy lifestyle? you can be dominant to choose all. you have option to choose but you have no energy to be all. 

I have been telling myself, if one day I am leaving the world, I hope everyone is crying for me with full of memories but not crying for me with money! I hope everyone is posting pictures of me taken in many places with a lot of smiles on my face on Facebook but not posting cases on getting my wills on legal. I wanna make my life colourful and my surrounding friends and family look healthy. 

I know what am I looking for, I don't need to chase my dream in the work but I can chase my dream in the world! No matter how far I go one day I gonna return and come down in one way. I love travelling and seeing cultures. So that's my point in life! 

I urge everyone go and watch this movie. it is good "step out" solution for everyone is still struggling in life. no matter you are 30s or 40s boy or girl. Life is unfair only you gonna choose a fair direction to be what you want. Go watch! 

   

Project # 175

18 April 2017

After few weeks of hunting new jobs and been to numerous of interviews. Finally I got a job before my last day in Public Bank and before my trip to Japan. It was a good timing with all the blessings and prayers! I got a secured job with newly established bank in Malaysia - China Construction Bank Malaysia Berhad. It's a good opportunity to be part of the pioneer team to grow this company. 

I'm feeling uncertainty and worried about my new coming job whether I can suit into their cultures or not or I need to leave my past and step  out and accept new thing and new environment. It's a huge challenges which I soon gonna be a Senior Manager in Administration. Everything is under me. While I used to direct people do me favour last time in my ex company but now I have to get command from my superior or other colleagues. What a challenge. I have to shallow my pride and my dignities. People request me favour and I need to do what they want me to do. 

Sometime I need to  think that I'm doing works that is simple yet difficult (sometime stressful) coz different cultures. and I got high pay and I feel this should be enough for me. and...

Sometime I will think that am I wasting my time on my job prospect in banking coz currently I will be doing works that totally slack out from banking industry.  some question are keep bothering me! 

Project # 174

28 March 2017

I have been struggling for so long whether should I leave my comfort zone, my secured-job with better benefits and etc. Life like this people jealous outside, but I have no more passion and I'm asking HOW? I'm 26 years old NOW, I have been working for 4 & 1/2 years holding an Assistant Manager which believe everyone is thinking I'm way too fast to get a position like this and I'm proud and impress myself on how good am I! Without any knowledge of banking and finance or any background and foundation for today I'm standing here as a professional banker! I have made a thrilling shift from Public Relations to Banking. 

Today I have tendered my resignation without provide any solid reason, leave with no plans and not getting job offer yet but ".. I have been to few interviews. " That's the excuses I always keep in my mind and telling everyone. This could calm myself ..I'm okay, don't worry.. When time passes and my notice period is getting shorter, plan does not go well and it becomes critical for me and this is human natural reaction because of debts, responsibility and future. You tend to worry and rush. Here goes another story, the baby boomers who are close to you will justify on your decisions like they think  that you are playing a wrong step on your chessboard. Hell ass, maybe at least a positive word. Okay, this could make me more nervous. 

Thanks God for letting me cool down in seconds when my friends are so supportive and my love is the 100% goodness! The aura is making me stronger, at least this time I could sit down quietly and think on what is my next. Everywhere is a job, anywhere can find money and we just making ourselves one way hence we start to stress ourselves. Why could we step few steps backward and we can see the big picture instead one corner. 

Once I resigned, it's just like trend. There are more motivational videos, quotes and animations in social media like Facebook or Instagram. These are giving me idea of life. I found something useful :-

"When you think there is more risky when you leave your job but how about it's more risky to stay until you get 60s and you look back your life, will you be regret or happy?"

This is why I keep questioning myself until today I have made my decision which I have no worry there is no plan... yet. but soon there is a plan comes perfectly with God's wills.. I believe

Until now I'm still looking for jobs and opportunities with hopes and prayers. Guess I will update here after I got a good offer. Bless me!

Sebastian.

PS: I have posted a post year ago regarding one day I have made decision, and It's today! Check it out!