Thought...

I hope I'm not emo...
but I look so numb and my heart feels so BAD.

Today after CEM, and someone hates me...
have no idea why she hates me.

Asking her what happen...
and she refused to answer.

Tonight went to Orchestra...
and love the kids so much.

Listening and watching their performances...
and I felt like I'm already in heaven.

Opened my eyes and I still in this headache world...
and things keep appearing in my mind.

Asking myself, why everyone can't just only focus on 1 particular thing?...
and my BFF is the one and I don't know why.

Asking myself, why everyone so indecisive?...
because everyone wants perfect instead.

Asking myself, why someone is so happening but ended up he still lonely?...
Just look at the mirror and the mirror shows the answer.

Asking myself, Why my mind got so many "WHY" ?...
because I can't find the accurate answers.

Asking myself, Why everyone looks so fake and why they can't fade away?...
because this is a fate.

Asking myself, Why everyone wants to go heaven but they don't want die early?...
because I still young.

Asking myself, Why am I still living and I suppose to die early and leave all the burdens behind?
but I don't want to die 1st, because I got a mission to achieve.

Enough...

done...

`Sebastian`