an Emo Christmas

2am now and I wish that I was sleeping... I'm lazy to blog and just wanna abandone this anytime... but I'm a good and blessed blogger and I wont let the readers disappointed.

Today, I wished that Ade can offer me more slaps on my face... I donno why... Why the day looks so emo? and making my heart and my mind so unstable. This year seems so fast... just like NOBODY BUSINESS!!! This year looks so empty from me... it supposed to be a memorable year for me because I accepted Christ and I baptised... but I feel like I haven't done what my 2008 resolution is! and now left more 3 or 5 days to year 2009. fast...!

I like Enchanted movie... I watched it last Christmas 2007 with my friends and today we watched it again (with the tarts) haha... and also on Christmas... I missed the songs and Giselle! She so awesome...

This year... I'm having an emo Christmas... because emo Sebastian was having his emo feeling... I wished I will be having a nice Christmas this year but after the Gracehill... I was like totally emo until now...

I missed the starlight in Gracehill...laying on the floor with my bff and bb (best buddy) and the pillows.. and looked up to the starlight... when I looked at the stars. and feel like Jesus Christ is waiting for me... he is trying to get my attention by blinking the stars. and my heart, my mind, my body and my soul turned to emo. Sad that... why last time I keep ignoring God... I wasted my 17 years for not being with God.and now, I just knew God for only 1 year and I'm 18!!! ... and I done nothing in this year... ya.. I did some performances... is it for the people or for God or for me?... i have no idea. haih...

The 24th of December. was a Christmas Eve. went to houses for carolling. It recalled me back to last year... we did carolling to houses at night... but I feel like I like last year instead of this year. (i donno why) went to Uncle Allan house and saw their Christmas Tree and the presents beside the piano. My heart started to has more joy... but when off the light and see the Christmas tree and the lighting and it is making me fall into a bad situation again. I thought it was a cure but in the end it was a lure.

The 25th of December. glad that my mother attended our church Christmas Servise. I thought is a day to be happy but at night... Emo came! and Sebastian still the same! emo... at izzi... lame... and went to Watson (my favourite stall) to have some walk in there. I like Watson's enviroment. the smell is making me feel better. haha...

ok la.. gtg now

bye..

by, Ooi Tong @ Sebastian